Sermon 8.28.2011 “Take Up Your Cross” Matt. 16.21-28
The church I served years ago in Kansas City was right on the southern edge of Wyandotte County, where the suburban edge of the city met corn fields and farms. The site was chosen because a demographic projection of the area predicted that a very large population of Spanish-speaking people were going to move there from a more urban part of the city. The two-lane road in front of the church was projected to turn into a four-lane boulevard. A Spanish-speaking pastor was brought in from Puerto Rico to start the church up. After eight years the latino migration never occurred, the street never became a boulevard, and the pastor left a small, somewhat confused, English-speaking congregation behind and went off to where a Spanish-speaker was actually needed.
Some time later I arrived to help the English-speaking congregation, who assured me they were in a prime location to grow, since quite a few very large housing developments had been built within just a couple miles. What I learned after arriving was that the housing was in Johnson County, to the south. Now, I could stand on the church property and throw a rock into Johnson County. The problem was that in Wyandotte Co., where the church was, numbered streets ran north and south. In Johnson Co., to the south numbered streets ran east and west. So... to get from the housing developments to the church, you had to successfully negotiate the intersection of 47th and 47th, then make the correct turn at the intersection of 55th and 55th! It's almost funny --how doomed that church was. 1000' south and it would've been fine!
Sometimes the plans we make just don't work out. How many of us can look at our own lives and say, “Well, it's not exactly what I had in mind for myself.” Maybe things turned out OK, but it's a far cry from what you had expected when you were starting out. I think a lot of us have lived lives like that.
Jesus' disciples had some of expectations for Jesus and themselves when out of the blue, Jesus starts talking about going into Jerusalem and letting his movement blow up – letting himself be arrested and humiliated and killed in the worst possible way. Which would have the effect of putting all of his disciples at risk as well. “Gee, swell plan, Lord! Let's go right now!” When Peter protests, Jesus speaks the famous line, “Get behind me, Satan.” And in doing so he draws a line back to the beginning of his ministry, the Temptation in the Wilderness. At that point Jesus resisted three temptations to short-circuit his ministry and make it something less than it needed to be. So here again near the end of his ministry, Jesus says, no, we're going to do this right, all the way to the end.
Jesus' life was one of sometimes-bewildering and sometimes-infuriating consistency. He called who he wanted to call. He ate with those he wanted to eat with. He touched and healed those he wanted to touch and heal. And he wasn't afraid of anything or anybody. Not afraid of hunger or loneliness or temptation in the desert. Not afraid of lepers. Not afraid of Herod. Not afraid of Pilate. Not afraid of the cross.
We sometimes wonder how to follow such a one as that. How far can we get imitating one like that? I mean, you'd have to be Jesus Christ! And none of us can do that. Our efforts to imitate Jesus are doomed to fail. We don't have Jesus' power, we don't live in Jesus' world. We live in this world – a world where our best laid plans result in planting a church in the only corner of KC that won't grow! Our best laid plans for ourselves run smack into the unpredictable circumstances of life! We can't go very far in imitating Christ... so what we do is internalize him. We listen, we eat and drink. We hear to the words of faith coming out of own mouths and try to get used to the sound. We expose ourselves to the Good News and let it change and transform us. In doing so we find that we might be giving up some of the plans that we originally had for our lives. We might find that instead of climbing some ladder to fame and fortune that we have these strange impulses to feed the hungry, clothe the naked, find the lost, share a cup of cold water, or share the Good News. We might find that some of our life's plans aren't lost altogether, but are placed into a new context, that of doing the best we can to live faithful lives as God leads us.
I don't believe that taking up one's cross means throwing your life away. I don't think it means living as a hermit and forgoing all worldly comfort. Jesus did not recruit followers to be suicide bombers. Bearing a cross does not mean making oneself a martyr by putting up with your stupid in-laws, or enduring chronic pain without seeking medical treatment. We are not called to seek suffering and love suffering. And we are not called to seek out suffering and endure suffering because in doing so we will earn a reward. We are called to make a witness. And we don't have to have the wealth of a Warren Buffet or the power of a Washington politician to do so. Any believer can make a witness. It just so happens that those who make their witness when they are poor or suffering frequently make the most impact. They're considered more credible.
And in every denomination since the beginning of the modern church, the poor have always given a larger percentage of their income to the work of the church than have the wealthy. Logic says the wealthy have more to give. Most wealthy people apparently don't feel that way.
Taking up your cross doesn't mean you go out looking for trouble. It means you make your witness, wherever you are, and with whatever means you have at your disposal. If you find yourself in front of Pilate you tell him the truth and you don't blink. If you find yourself in front of your best friend who's talking about doing something really hurtful, or violent, or dishonest, or selfish you tell him the truth and you don't blink. If you find yourself in front of a total stranger who says that because her life has been tough she has nothing to live for and life is just a cruel joke, you can tell her the truth of what you believe, that yes, sometimes life is really hard and seems really unfair, but she is known and loved by the God who made her, who asks her to lift her eyes from her own pain to see the God that loved her this much (arms spread) on the cross. That God knows what pain and rejection feel like and has hope to offer her of new life and forgiveness and Christian fellowship and people who will encourage and support her.
You can bear a cross and not even know it if you just do what your heart – formed in faith – tells you is right. And if you do what your heart tells you is right, it doesn't matter how many times your life has changed direction or how many surprising turns you've taken, because you will have no regrets.